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Finding Solace in a Time of Uncertainty: My Journey with Nerdy Bird Farm Animals

The beginning of 2024 brought about significant changes in my life. Following my layoff in January, the reality of my situation seemed overwhelming. Yet, during the months of March and April, I found a surprising source of solace and joy—our farm, Nerdy Bird Farm. This period allowed me to detach from the harsh realities in front of me and center myself for the journey ahead.


Please enjoy a Google Photos Album for this period. https://photos.app.goo.gl/B7QmQuHFxEHTwfpw7


Embracing Farm Life: A Journey of Connection

Whenever the weather was warm enough and my body allowed me to walk much past the house, I spent cherished moments with our Navajo Churro Sheep, new lambs, the new bull named Charlie, and our pigs, Hammy and Porkchop. These animals provided a much-needed distraction and a sense of purpose amid the chaos. Watching the new lambs frolic, getting to know Charlie’s gentle demeanor, and observing the playful antics of Hammy and Porkchop brought me a sense of peace and fulfillment that had been missing for so long.


Cinnamon and Christmas Lamb (Chris for short)

Centering Myself Amidst Chaos

This connection with the animals allowed me to center myself. Even though I wasn't able to feed or tend to them much due to my physical limitations, simply being present with them provided a calming effect I had longed for. The relentless stress and pressure seemed to lift, replaced by a profound appreciation for the simple joys of life on the farm. My bleach-body odor, a side effect of chronic stress, diminished considerably during this time, a small yet significant sign of the inner peace I was beginning to find.


Ethan, Roary and me

The Physical Toll: Lingering Challenges

Despite the mental and emotional benefits of this period, my physical health continued to be a challenge. My spine and the remaining muscles in my back continued to deteriorate, a constant reminder of the battles I was fighting within my own body. Yet, the time spent with the farm animals provided a counterbalance, a way to focus on the positive aspects of my life rather than the physical limitations.


Helga and Charlie

Preparing for the Journey Ahead

As the days turned into weeks, I realized that this time spent with the animals was preparing me for the journey ahead. It was a period of respite, a chance to recharge and gather strength for whatever lay in front of me. Nerdy Bird Farm became a sanctuary, a place where I could momentarily forget the uncertainties and focus on the present moment.


Moving Forward: Carrying the Lessons

The lessons I learned during these months are ones I carry with me as I move forward. The importance of finding joy in the small things, the value of connecting with nature, and the necessity of taking time to center oneself—all these have become integral parts of my journey. The animals, in their own way, taught me resilience, patience, and the power of living in the moment.


Helga, Christmas Lamb and me

Conclusion: A Glimmer of Hope

In the face of adversity, it’s often the simplest things that bring the most profound comfort. For me, it was the time spent with the animals at Nerdy Bird Farm that provided a glimmer of hope and a sense of peace. While the challenges remain, the memories of those serene moments continue to inspire me and remind me of the importance of finding balance and joy in life, no matter the circumstances.


Missy, Hammy, Porkchop and me

Exciting News: Book Launch

I'm thrilled to announce the upcoming launch of my book, Narcissists All

Around Me: My Chaotic Journey as a Scapegoat, scheduled for release in October 2024. This book delves deeper into my personal experiences and the toxic dynamics that have shaped my life.


If you resonated with this blog post, I invite you to explore my book for more insights and strategies on navigating and overcoming narcissistic abuse. Stay tuned for the official release date and links to purchase the book. Your support means the world to me, and I hope my story can offer strength and guidance to those in similar situations.

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